finding fulfillment

i love being a mom. i super love being rooney's mom.


but, as i have said before, i want to have more babies. and, as you know, things aren't going that way & i find myself sad about it a lot. then, a friend said something that has stuck with me. she has been struggling through miscarriages & after all the sadness that comes with pregnancy loss, she eventually knew something had to change. she realized that she needed to feel fulfilled where she was.


it's all i can think about. no matter where we find ourselves in life, we need to make finding fulfillment a goal. my goal is to not only be fulfilled, but, as my dad says, "to be happy along the way."


ever since that conversation, my "aha moment", i have really focused on rooney & doing everything i can now to enjoy this time with her. it's been our sweetest few weeks together. somehow, i love her even more! (& i really didn't think that was possible)


we've been going "buh bye" every morning & i have been focusing on filling my time with goodness/working on time management. we're getting a schedule down & having a lot of fun. i am working on more consistent scripture study. i try to wake up before rooney (except for when she wakes up at 5:40 am) to work out. i am back to work for the school district & that has kept  me busier than i thought it would. then there is hoops&threads - my favorite hobby these days!


so, here's to filling our lives with the best. here's to finding fulfillment even when life is hard & you're not where you wanted to be. find the good!