initially called my parents to see if maybe they wanted to go in on it, but then my heart took over and, selfishly, i thought that i wanted the stroller to be ours.
when my dad found out that i wanted to keep it, he gave me a hard time about it. then he said, you don't even have two kids.
i lost it.
i want two kids.
i should be nearly 21 weeks along.
i am doing everything i can to have another one (test, procedures, & more tests)
then i realized why i really bought that stroller. it is me showing that i have not given up. it is hope. i have faith that there are more babies waiting to be a part of my family, so i felt like buying the stroller was me showing that faith. it all seems so silly, but at the same time, not at all.
i have an attachment to our red double stroller. i look at it & i can see rooney being a big sister. i look at it & my uterus feels extra empty. i look at it & i remember how far i have come. i look at it & i have hope that there are more.
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It is so painful. I really feel like Rooney will be a big sister. And I hope you don't have to wait much longer.
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