tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-40494464948517475172024-03-05T02:22:53.824-08:00loving through lifeTati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.comBlogger590125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-41989772899923715372020-06-20T16:37:00.000-07:002020-06-20T16:37:27.479-07:00guster's THIRD birthday!MAY 18, 2020<div><br /></div><div>I haven't been much at keeping my blog since Gus was born. Suddenly he is THREE!</div><div><br /></div><div>Lucky for me, he doesn't expect much and is happy as long as we are having a good time - and a good time was definitely had for our birthday boy.</div><div><br /></div><div>The Fort Smith Police Department is allowing you to call and set up visits from police officers for birthdays. I of course took advantage of this awesome service and scheduled a visit for Gus on Saturday night. The kind officer ran his sirens as he came down the street & sang happy birthday over his PA. Then he brought a gift up to Gus & chatted with us for a bit. Turns out he grew up in Murrieta and was surprised to see my (760) phone number. His visit very exciting & Gus still talks about it.</div><div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEguzcjyAvdouhDMYYawMZZ-wVaMCrac6ARPjoOdyMO5MllYMz7mOltdQlvoHAxiPbjPfin2-R-Oigiyplqlh0IpWdcdIZr9E6NrLi8VpxY9Q_h3sAF9CBZOZ7MdedAbrKQwzpXllgTUIUk/s4032/IMG_0883.HEIC" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEguzcjyAvdouhDMYYawMZZ-wVaMCrac6ARPjoOdyMO5MllYMz7mOltdQlvoHAxiPbjPfin2-R-Oigiyplqlh0IpWdcdIZr9E6NrLi8VpxY9Q_h3sAF9CBZOZ7MdedAbrKQwzpXllgTUIUk/s320/IMG_0883.HEIC" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dwe8R4VODAY8nfR-oj2mzNHj_MGczPPlp8AdMUzo-EIJhdNWpAOFId2NwPJCHt_JSmyYfe9gl0Qx6-2-HXpXw' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">After the police visit, we went to the Mortensens. It was our first family outing since quarantine began. The kids had so much fun & we never wanted to leave.</div></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhAqJcAgZ64jg0zkC9erKprhUlg5FiTu5s5vRzndZHbev6nR_olad8P6y0Dy1_ROFH_SrBPipJ0xFGh-SHDBEWgjHS-bSvd8ak9s7Zf8rlEdk2QU3MTqiybLbSDqbwl95xVQvrHtlU9_qQ/s4032/IMG_0889.HEIC" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhAqJcAgZ64jg0zkC9erKprhUlg5FiTu5s5vRzndZHbev6nR_olad8P6y0Dy1_ROFH_SrBPipJ0xFGh-SHDBEWgjHS-bSvd8ak9s7Zf8rlEdk2QU3MTqiybLbSDqbwl95xVQvrHtlU9_qQ/s320/IMG_0889.HEIC" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">Gus is really into spiderman, so we made sure to get him a spiderman cake. An acquaintance out here did such a fantastic job on the cake & Gus loved it. The Lambs joined us at our house for hot dogs & cake.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg8AMbzvnGDZ5oja9blzCvSh-320-1IylAdAlw7kZqfee59I9iby1j73YRUc6tB1duMjcztJDXfBAEpSEuBZ87FpJuoC37456Xg7nazXWDti_Z20b0X1C3Sm8cLiGbH5BLdowZnUz9fwCM/s4032/IMG_0957.HEIC" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg8AMbzvnGDZ5oja9blzCvSh-320-1IylAdAlw7kZqfee59I9iby1j73YRUc6tB1duMjcztJDXfBAEpSEuBZ87FpJuoC37456Xg7nazXWDti_Z20b0X1C3Sm8cLiGbH5BLdowZnUz9fwCM/s320/IMG_0957.HEIC" width="320" /></a><img border="0" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEic71E3O63OzmaEExdhI6dKUyVnWiAXHCskXxbTqOun0z7BDr4Iog80KWBxbh8hQrURmptHDTJ9HFG27ExllB7kEqvZ9RX614otRy26JwcNPVihpbN3GG4dSonAaV-ILJLg27ALabGkw70/s320/IMG_0956.HEIC" style="text-align: left;" width="320" /></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhxvKty4O-5DupfGVmHtehPYpat18MP6d3hWAG6cyvi8eWrcsTpCFdPB7F9SMdErraPsehLfUoglm_GwJl7B1x61Q8OMenB-IJQw91aCVijCVcJxmeRXrUP2WUsVCQhWNkZq8Np_qlKKW4/s4032/IMG_0980.HEIC" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhxvKty4O-5DupfGVmHtehPYpat18MP6d3hWAG6cyvi8eWrcsTpCFdPB7F9SMdErraPsehLfUoglm_GwJl7B1x61Q8OMenB-IJQw91aCVijCVcJxmeRXrUP2WUsVCQhWNkZq8Np_qlKKW4/s320/IMG_0980.HEIC" width="320" /></a></div><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1800" data-original-width="1440" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgLOjHcwOxGnq8PJki0TimkAkeocisALL1SQPHTqrcVsJALPFLWCzUUBGAvLq9_FVkEGzFJG7Et4o2rHzv_yGXw-WPBAR2W9qrZbwwsOz-TCUrI4M8hz8rLeyQ4r_bamZle4VqhhfMAai8/s320/E4FCE8BF-4945-4C52-892C-A9A66E490DB3.jpg" style="text-align: left;" /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhHeUmf0gE985Z5OnPkWnAb8KlCBRgMfb0OnEnKzXkQPeKztesmDxQ-W9AJneK1I3nfuB8rbEDiXUvOLpg9ZrAPLruI8TFmZ9ZE-pLCWm8DrfizZ056KCSpn3TjAwpLzhXE2mrFdTM89wA/s1800/0877647C-AE11-4C26-A7C9-7D072FFBA227.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1800" data-original-width="1440" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhHeUmf0gE985Z5OnPkWnAb8KlCBRgMfb0OnEnKzXkQPeKztesmDxQ-W9AJneK1I3nfuB8rbEDiXUvOLpg9ZrAPLruI8TFmZ9ZE-pLCWm8DrfizZ056KCSpn3TjAwpLzhXE2mrFdTM89wA/s320/0877647C-AE11-4C26-A7C9-7D072FFBA227.jpg" /></a></div><br /><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiuP5r4TRD7gNQ8ZIgvVVnNsikxmOH4H2LpB-1I7kkZR_7s6wtY5beIrYsHKvPE0Y4vLp8KK_RrMttbOcDI6vKOrxuRiw5JZ8ixSKMWv1XJSZbNqsnfb7ukvqAHrdlDbK5BKOhno9Vq-Dk/s320/IMG_0926.HEIC" style="text-align: left;" width="320" /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjVmBBEOyKPVp8GV0knTg0Fu6yT7KpeadKKStxRvmRXxrihyphenhyphen-U1zmImFBMbJFkgCN5_aphh28c8SwEsnt8l1H3Kq2ytjfF84PyekasRZV2Y-HhPnzNam5qckWi1ka-aIrfT-J8Rke4nRJ4/s4032/IMG_0921.HEIC" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjVmBBEOyKPVp8GV0knTg0Fu6yT7KpeadKKStxRvmRXxrihyphenhyphen-U1zmImFBMbJFkgCN5_aphh28c8SwEsnt8l1H3Kq2ytjfF84PyekasRZV2Y-HhPnzNam5qckWi1ka-aIrfT-J8Rke4nRJ4/s320/IMG_0921.HEIC" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;">My Guster James, You are a bundle of high-energy joy. Your nursery leaders said it best when they told me that you are the first to give someone a hug when they are crying, but then will turn around & push another friend in the back. You love all the fruit, blippi, superheros - but especially SPIDERMAN, & jumping on the trampoline. You are the toughest rough & tumble boy, yet you are always down for a good snuggle. You are officially potty trained & love to tell us about all your toilet happenings. You love your sisters & want to be just like your dad. I could listen to your chatter all day & lucky for me - you are pretty much always talking. You melt my heart with your big blue eyes, mop of thick straight hair, & adorable smile. I can never stay mad at you & we are so blessed to have you in our family.</div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"> </div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><br /></div>Tati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-74974628680762628762020-06-15T20:31:00.001-07:002020-06-17T10:34:58.450-07:00rooney's FIFTH birthday!<div>MARCH 18, 2020</div><div><br /></div>i can hardly believe it.<div><br /></div><div>my little rooney ann is five years old! & i am so proud of the sweet girl she has become. her birthday happened just as we went into quarantine - meaning we celebrated with just our little family. </div><div><br /></div><div>now, rooney has some high expectations for birthdays. she always has - i remember two year old rooney telling me she wanted a <a href="http://kukiluki.blogspot.com/2017/03/rooneys-second-birthday.html" target="_blank">doc mcstuffins</a> birthday & listing everything that she expected. she likes to celebrate hard. we talked about coronavirus & how that meant no birthday party with friends, which was a sad concept for our people loving girl, but she decided starting with breakfast in bed would make it a little better. she told me exactly what breakfast she wanted & still her eyes lit up when i walked in the next morning. i got up early to make her food & it was oh so very worth it.</div><div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; 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i got up early early that morning. the c section was scheduled for 7:00am so we had to be at the hospital at 5:00am. i wanted to take a nice, pamper myself type shower. it was so calm, but my heart was pounding - i was going into a major surgery (still scary, even though it was my third. you always think about all those "what ifs") AND i was hours away from holding our newest family member in my arms!<br />
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my parents had flown in a few days earlier and dad came with us to the hospital for documentation purposes. my mom would join us with the kids around 7:15 so that they would all be there by the time we made it back into my room. so, we get into our room in l&d. i meet the nurses and the anesthesiologist. they monitor baby and everything is looking good. then a nurse comes in around 6:45 with a catheter! i beg her to wait until i have received my spinal block, but she reassures me that my surgery is just minutes away and this is normal. you guys. i admit that i have some trauma when it comes to catheters because of <a href="https://kukiluki.blogspot.com/2015/03/she-is-here.html">rooney's delivery</a>, but i do not think it is standard procedure to put anyone through the pain of a catheter if they are about to have a spinal block or epidural. let me know if i am wrong. anyway, i was mad at this nurse. i was in tears. i was so uncomfortable. it was awful. and i think i have a pretty good pain tolerance (remember that one time my fallopian tube burst and i hardly felt it?). they kept reassuring me that it was just for a little...</div>
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but then my doctor was an hour and a half late. yep. my 7:00 surgery didn't happen until after 8:30. tuesdays weren't her normal surgery day - she forgot that we had scheduled my c section for that morning. so. i felt that dang catheter for nearly two hours. i was so uncomfortable. and my mom and the kids had shown up which made things a little chaotic. they were planning to be there just in time for me and the baby to be rolled back into the room. instead, we had over an hour to kill with no new baby.</div>
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then the doctor showed up and things began to move. they had ashton hang back and they told him to put on the getup while they took me into the operating room. they had me climb out of the bed and onto the operating table (with the dang catheter ughhhh (last time i mention it, i promise)). the anesthesiologist gave me my block and laid me down. i was immediately nauseated and felt like there was an elephant on my chest, both things i hadn't experienced with my previous c sections. and as soon as i couldn't feel my legs, they were opening me up. you guys, ashton wasn't even in the room yet. i remember the anesthesiologist holding up a tin for me to throw up in and i was mumbling about ashton not being there! i got a cold compress put on my head and eventually ashton made it. he says that he walked in and i was already all opened up! </div>
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then i heard that beautiful cry & someone said, "it's a girl!" ashton's face was one of disbelief as he said, "no way!" he thought for sure we were having another boy. </div>
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***side story. i later found out that he had looked at the screen during our ultrasound and had seen the tabs along the top for all the different body parts. he saw one that said "it's a boy!" and assumed, that meant we were having a boy. makes sense right? he kept that secret from me for 4 whole months! & it contributed to his genuine shock that we had another girl! which is exactly what rooney had been praying for.***</div>
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they don't do, or hadn't heard of, gentle c-sections here which was really sad for me. they made sure to show me ramona's little face over the blue curtain before they wrapped all 7 pounds, 11 ounces, and 19 3/4 inches of her up. i don't really remember much after that. ashton took ramona to the waiting room to meet family, but they weren't there. they had taken the kids to the cafeteria for some snacks. i was taken to recovery and waited in an empty room for everyone to join me. ashton and ramona beat my parents and the kids. it is safe to say, we were all immediately smitten. she was and continues to be the cutest, sweetest, rolliest baby.</div>
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our stay at the hospital was short - they only let you stay for 48 hours after a c section. with rooney and gus, we always stayed three nights and had the option for a fourth. but that turned out ok because hospital stays here are nothing like they were in utah. the rooms and bathrooms are old - like i didn't want to even shower kind of old. there was no nursery, so i never got more than an hour of sleep at a time. she was born on tuesday and by lunch on thursday, we were home.</div>
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i also didn't get to recover like i was used to. i wasn't able to get up as quickly as i was used to and there wasn't much space to walk. but! i will say, that i had no bruising and my incision looks fantastic.</div>
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luckily, my parents stayed out until she was a week old and then ashton's parents came. amazingly enough, the smiths walked off the plane as my parents walked on to the same one. then ashton didn't take paternity leave until his parents went home, so we got him home all the way through christmas eve. it was perfect and i definitely needed all hands on deck that first month of three kids.</div>
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it wasn't my favorite birth (i think <a href="https://kukiluki.blogspot.com/2017/05/he-is-here.html">gus's</a> will take that award) or the most emotional (reading <a href="https://kukiluki.blogspot.com/2015/03/she-is-here.html">rooney's</a> birth story still makes me cry), but i am so glad that ramona is here safe and healthy. we cannot remember life before her - she just fits so wonderfully in our family.</div>
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Tati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-78940006268213588972020-05-15T17:18:00.005-07:002020-06-17T10:36:59.551-07:00ramona's pregnancyas with every pregnancy, i am very hesitant after the positive test.<br />
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i got very sick around 5 weeks - i am pretty sure it was a few days long stomach bug, but it then led right into the worst morning sickness i have had so far. it is nothing compared to what some go through but ugh, it was awful and lasted until after 20 weeks.<br />
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then, at 12 weeks, just before gus's second birthday, my parents came to visit. i started bleeding. i was beside myself, sure i was miscarrying. i couldn't get out of bed. i couldn't stop crying. it was a saturday, so we set up an appointment for monday. the bleeding came heavy and then would stop. then it would appear again.<br />
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i had an ultrasound that monday, but everything looked fine! baby was busy. they told me it was probably a subchorionic hemorrhage, though they couldn't find the tear. because they couldn't see where the blood had come from, they told me that was probably the last of it.<br />
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of course, it wasn't. and i was back in the doctors office a few days later. baby was just fine and my obgyn told me that the blood obviously wasn't bothering my baby. she also told me that this didn't mean i would miscarry and that i could keep doing what i was doing - baby was growing and i had two babies at home who still needed me. i appreciated her point of view, she is very much it is all in God's hand type, but i need to know i am doing everything i can to protect my baby. so, after consulting some friends, i decided to take it easy. i was on a modified bedrest and i kept bleeding until 17 weeks. and baby started kicking hard enough for me to feel around 14 weeks, which was very reassuring.<br />
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at the end of 2018, we still weren't pregnant. which wasn't our norm - trying for so long without success. if you've read my previous posts, you can see why that was so hard.<br />
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so, i can now understand infirtility in the aspece of someone who is miscarrying often and someone who can't get pregnant.<br />
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i went and saw the doctor who had done my ectopic surgery a few weeks after the surgery, june/july of 2018. i asked him if i would need to have an hsg done, something that i had read most doctors require after ectopic pregnancies & a procedure <a href="https://kukiluki.blogspot.com/2016/07/my-hysterosalpingogram.html">i had done before</a>. he told me it wasn't necessary because they had removed my entire tube. i went with it.<br />
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months continued to come and go. along with my period. like clockwork. & each month i found myself mourning a pregnancy that hadn't happened.<br />
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i continued to do research. there is so much that i just did not know! did you know that women have a dominant overy? did you know that they don't alternate dropping eggs every other month?! whichever side has the "queen egg" gets to drop that month! i had no idea. and how was i to know if my left ovary was my dominant one or not - obviously that would mess with my opportunity to get pregnant if it kept dropping eggs and there was not fallopian tube to guide it to my uterus. then there were articles that said one fallopian tube could move its arm over to the other side to possibly catch a ready egg. it is all quite fascinating and deserves a lot more research on my part - maybe someday.<br />
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anyway, 2018 wrapping up. the doctor who had done my surgery told me i would be back in a few months, pregnant. but it had been over six months and nothing.<br />
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i called a different doctor - one who comes highly recommended by the doctors in our ward. getting in to see her was like jumping through hoops. back in may 2018, when i knew something was wrong with my pregnancy, i had called her to try and schedule an appointment. they needed my pap history (something no other doctor had ever required before seeing me) which meant i had to call utah. they needed a signed release so i had to go in to the doctors office here and fill out a form that they faxed to my utah doctor. it was such a mess. and by the time they had gotten back to me i had already lost my baby and my tube and wanted nothing to do with them.<br />
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by october of 2018 and still not pregnant, i called the recommended obgyn again. i had to cry for an appointment because they didn't have my pap history anymore (seriously healthcare in arkansas is crazy). they got me in after thanksgiving. i finally talked to my new obgyn and she rolled her eyes when i told her my surgery doctor told me i did not need an hsg. she told me that it is something she recommends after every surgery in/around your uterus and i had had a c section and ectopic since my last one. that was scheduled for february 27th.<br />
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i figured that since i had already experienced an hsg, it would be no big deal. i was wrong. in utah, the nurse came and held my hand. she was there with me. here, it was very cold, sterile, and lonely. and it hurt much worse. turned out that all my scar tissue had adhered my cervic shut! sorry for the tmi, but suddenly why i wasn't getting pregnant made sense.<br />
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and guess what. the next cycle, we got a positive pregnancy test!<br />
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Tati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-2714598976059391932020-05-15T13:15:00.001-07:002020-05-15T13:15:42.120-07:00latelyit has been over a year since i have come here to record about our life/my thoughts and i know that i am going to wish i had recorded more.<br />
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we have been in quarantine for two plus months.<br />
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we added another beautiful girl to our family in november.<br />
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we have been living in our little house for over a year now and love it even more than we did on the first day. we have done a few projects with it - pictures and a post to come - and continue to dream up more projects.<br />
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we made it through major flooding of our area. we watched as our ward and stake and city came together and serve those who were affected.<br />
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we experienced our first tornado touchdown in our city - it's been a year and the kids are still traumatized. they see clouds and immediately ask if there will be a tornado.<br />
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i have cut back on teaching online (by choice) and have really not had the time i would like for hoops&threads.<br />
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hopefully, i will be better about coming here to write about our happenings - my nostalgic soul misses having a place to come to remember past events.Tati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-53060028986880579032019-03-21T18:53:00.000-07:002019-03-21T18:53:07.481-07:00that time we bought a houseoh heyyyy!<br />
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i am teaching with VIPKID & gogokid. both are great. & i am actually not letting myself wake up before 5:30, so my class load has been fairly small. BUT, still! waking up at 5:30 am is kind of crazy. also, as much as a dread waking up so early in the morning, seeing those sweet little faces makes me so happy. it is worth it. it is good to be teacher tati.</div>
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i started teaching preschool. WHAT?! i know! it is small - five kids (one of them being mine) for two hours, twice a week. i was super nervous to take it on & told myself a few months ago that this was something i would never do, but it just fell into my lap & i LOVE it. i love these kids. rooney loves having friends come to her house. & teaching in my own "classroom" came back so naturally. i like being miss tati.</div>
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i just got released as a counselor in the relief society & am now a counselor in young womens. i really enjoyed my time in relief society & i am so grateful for the year i spent there. but, i am so very excited to give the young women all of my love! it is going to be so much fun.</div>
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our lease (that we have extended 5 months) is coming up & i want fort smith to feel like home. i don't want to share a wall with neighbors. i want a backyard. i want a place that i am excited to be in while we are here. i do like fort smith & i want to like my home. so, we started looking at home, just to see if we wanted to buy or rent. we checked to see what we would qualify for & that was sort of a mistake/but also a blessing because then we were getting phone calls & ashton felt like we had to follow through & got all stressed. </div>
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it wasn't easy. there was a lot of back and forth and attempts at compromise. it was exhausting. emotional. but we knew, we KNEW, this was our house and it was amazing to feel confident in that.<br />
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Tati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-84170925121503451752018-10-26T17:06:00.001-07:002018-10-26T17:06:30.560-07:00pregnancy & infant loss remembrance so, the majority of my posts the last few years have been about my experiences through pregnancy loss. i feel like i am on this soapbox A LOT & for a while, i was feeling guilty about it. but why? i think i worry people get so sick of hearing about this seemingly constant trial i am going through, but i have had so many people reach out to me because they are going through something similar. & let me tell you - that has been the best healer for me. to be able to help other women just by talking.<br />
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october is pregnancy & infant loss remembrance month. they say 1 in 4 women experience this loss. honestly, i think it is a lot more than that. i went through my <i>closest</i> friends & did the math.<br />
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- my mama & sisters 2 of 4 of us have experienced loss.<br />
- my childhood friends 4 of 5 of us have experienced loss.<br />
- my college/adult friends 4 of 5 of us have experienced loss.<br />
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these are just the women i am the very closest with & who been pregnant. that is A LOT of loss.<br />
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then there are the women who i have become close with through talking about my losses. some of these women were friends in high school or were in a class with me at BYU, some of them had previously just been acquaintances & a few of them are friends of my sisters. most of them i hadn't talked to for years. but they have now become my confidants, my go-to's during that time of month. we cheer each other on. we have each other's backs. we are bound together through empathy & these relationships are <i>beautiful</i>.<br />
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as most of you know, i recently had an ectopic pregnancy to add to pregnancy loss list. this one has thrown me a little because it physically altered my body (loss of my left fallopian tube) & i was not sure how that would affect our ability to get pregnant. when i asked my doctor here in arkansas if it would make it harder to get pregnant, he simply reassured me that i would be back in his office within a few months because i would be pregnant.<br />
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is the longest we have had to try, which if you do that math & count the months since my ectopic, it isn't that long. BUT, hear me out. this is the longest we have had to try by a few months, which feels like forever. & getting pregnant was never our hard part. our hard part is staying pregnant. so, it now appears that both might be hard which is extremely discouraging/makes me an emotional beast the week of my period (just ask anyone who talked to me at church last sunday (insert eyeroll emoji)).<br />
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as i have mentioned before, this time around is different because i am genuinely happy when i see others pregnant. i am so grateful for that. but it doesn't mean that my heart doesn't hurt when i see a "we're pregnant" post or a mama snuggling a newborn. i so badly <i>want </i>that.<br />
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<i>October is pregnancy & infant loss awareness month. Spreading awareness is something I have become passionate about, not just because it is all around us yet no one ever talks about it, but also because it helps heal me & bonds me to others who have experienced loss.</i></div>
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<i>Two days after Mother’s Day and two days before Gus turned one, I lost another baby along with my left tube. I thought miscarriages were my trials and this ectopic hit me out of nowhere, so out of nowhere that I ne<span class="text_exposed_show" style="display: inline; font-family: inherit;">ver really mourned. I just kept on living. This is the only picture I have from that day - just minutes before they took me into surgery.</span></i></div>
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<i>Over the 5 1/2 years of our marriage, I have been pregnant 6 times. I am sure many look at us, our two beautiful children, and think we have a perfect life. And we do. I am so blessed. And as much as I adore and absolutely LOVE Rooney and Guster, I have four angel babies that my heart longs to hold. </i></div>
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i <b>need</b> to do those everyday things - like manage my house (SO MUCH CLEANING), keep my kids alive & healthy, make meals, do laundry, etc. <u>my chores</u>. they take up a lot of my day.<br />
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the list of things i <i>want</i> to do can go on forever.<br />
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<li>scripture study. i have good intentions & i have my good days & my bad days, but it is not consistent. this really should be a <b>need</b> for me & hopefully, with sometime, it will get there.</li>
<li>not just keep my kids alive, but make them <i>happy</i> (without the use of the TV). that's a current goal - lessen our screen time & IT IS HARD! how do i make food, clean, or even go to the bathroom without the tv?!!! my kids are at my feet the minute that thing is off. we have started listening to music, books on tape, doing puzzles, & i recently bought some blocks. but guess what - that is more for me to clean!!! also, i want to play with them more. i want to spend more time being focused on just them (not them & mac 'n cheese on the stove...).</li>
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<li>read - i have a new obsession with reading. i am currently reading Anne of the Island, Educated, & Girl, Wash Your Face. <b>ALL</b> of them have me enthralled. i cannot stop.</li>
<li>VIPKID. so i actually got hired 19 days ago. cool. but no one was signing up for my classes. until this morning. i forgot to turn off the short notice option, so i happened to look at my phone at 6:50 this morning and i had a notification that said, "you have a class in 10 minutes." WHAT???!!! guys. it was a mad rush & i think it went ok, but it as thrown me through a loop today. also, i really want to do this. i want to have a little extra income to put towards my dreams - mostly traveling. also, can we talk about how much this will take over my mornings, the only time i feel productive? & there is still so much prep i feel i need to do before each class.</li>
<li>exercise. it makes such a difference & i love starting my morning that way, but it doesn't always. honestly, my health is something i am working on. i am trying to eat ALL the veggies - so send me all your favorite veggie recipes please. i was doing so well with exercise before my ectopic & then i sort of melted during recovery (which was so hard - both physically, mentally, oh, & emotionally too). it has taken me a lot to get back into a regular workout & i am keeping it calm with yoga, when i get around to working out.</li>
<li>meditation. i am so intrigued by meditation. it is something i would love to incorporate into my day. i mean, 5 minutes. i can do 5 minutes a day right? ya...</li>
<li>family home evening. family prayer. family scripture study. we always say we will do them before bedtime, but you guys, 7:00 rolls around and i am in a mad dash mode to get my kids in bed so i can chill.</li>
<li>embroider. remember how i was doing hoops&threads? ya. it has been a month since i last embroidered anything & i miss it.</li>
<li>watch shows with ashton, doing nothing, after the kids go to bed. this is our thing. it is how we unwind together before bed.</li>
<li>write posts in my blog. i don't do it often. i am no necessarily good at it. & i do not have a following, but i have lots of thoughts in my head that i would like to get out somewhere. which also leads to how i should probably keep a journal, too. so many things.</li>
<li>shower, put make up on, take care of my hair, my face, my nails, etc.</li>
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you guys. there's a lot of good stuff on my want list. how do i get it in? i feel like i need to wake up at 5 (i am available to teach from 6 to 8) & go to bed at midnight if i want to do any of this. also, give up social media & my evening tv time. i remember elder bednar's good, better, best & will probably go read that after this, but how do you guys do it? do i just pick one evening a week to focus on one thing? is it easier once kids are in school? do you have a time saving trick? tell me! </div>
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Tati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-57081291860252928042018-07-24T19:58:00.002-07:002018-07-25T19:42:28.897-07:00the aftermaththe tati after miscarriages was bitter, sad, & heartbroken. i couldn't be around anyone who was expecting without feeling that twinge of jealousy. being that way was hard & i hated those feeling. i knew they weren't good, but i couldn't help it. even after my successful pregnancies, i continued to almost roll my eyes when another mom so easily got pregnant. i would instantly count how many months apart their babies would be - like that would tell me if they struggled or not & worthy of my happiness. i am now rolling my eyes at myself. ugh.<br />
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but this loss, while harder physically than even my c-sections, has been a <i>completely</i> different experience. i am sad, but not heartbroken. i mean, really, 25% of women experience a miscarriage - i have had 3. only 1 to 2% of pregnancies are ectopic & even less lose a fallopian tube due to rupture. when i look at those stats, i do wonder why me & every time i get ready to be mad at Heavenly Father for putting me through another loss, i am overwhelmed by the love He has shown me through this entire ordeal.<br />
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- my parents. they made plans in february to come see us for gus's first birthday. in february, they bought plane tickets to get in to fort smith on the 15th. i even told them they could fly into okc or tulsa & we would come get them, but no, they flew to fort smith. & what a blessing! i went to the ER on the morning of the 15th. they got to my house just a few hours after my surgery. if they hadn't been here that first week post-op, i probably would have needed ashton to stay home from work. plus, who doesn't need their mom when life is hard?<br />
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- dinners. i am so grateful to my wonderful ministering sisters & a relief society president who is so quick to serve.<br />
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- flowers. <i>never</i> underestimate the power of flowers. they can bring so much joy & no one can ever have enough. it might be a simple gesture, but it's telling someone that you are thinking of them & that means the word.<br />
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- wonderful grandma fry passed away on May 23rd & she is so missed. when my mother in law told us, she said, "i can't help but think she is with your babies right now, getting to know them." those words resonated in my heart. i felt not only grandma fry there, but my grandma thorkelson too. they are surrounded by family & i will have eternity to raise them.<br />
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- the biggest tender mercy (tied with my parents being here, of course) was the disappearance of jealousy. i even helped throw a baby shower a week later & did it happily! i have had a few friends call to tell me they are expecting and i experienced true happiness for them. i even told a friend that <i>finally</i> <i style="font-weight: bold;">my loss doesn't outweigh someone else's joy.</i><br />
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as far as my baby though, i am still numb. i knew for nearly 2 weeks that i was pregnant before i went to the ER. i had plenty of time to dream and plan for my January 9th baby. we had names picked. we had already discussed the need for a minivan. & while i was hesitant like i always am early in pregnancy, i felt good, peaceful, & secure in this new pregnancy.<br />
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but, here i am...empty.<br />
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empty, but not mourning. i haven't had a real good cry & i keep going back & forth on how i feel about that. with every miscarriage, i have cried for a good week. i miss baby, but i feel ok. maybe i am used to the loss part? part of me worries that it means i didn't have a relationship with this little one & that terrifies me. but as i sit here, writing these words, i know that isn't true. sweet baby is there, with my other babies gone too soon & the sweet angels waiting to come to us. i am so proud that i was chosen to help their sweet little spirits gain bodies. it is such a tender mercy to have this knowledge & a testimony in the eternal bonds of family.<br />
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my army in heaven continues to grow.<br />
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<br />Tati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-34716826725776164102018-07-24T19:48:00.001-07:002018-07-25T19:42:48.069-07:00my ectopic experiencethe evening before Mother's Day, May 12, 2018, i saw a bright red streak & defeatedly told Ashton that we were losing our baby. i kept waiting for the cramping to start, the clots to pass - i know how a miscarriage is supposed to go. but the bleeding stayed light & inconsistent & the cramping never came.<br />
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that night, i woke up to a pain in my lower left abdomen. there was still a little bit of bright bleeding, but the pain was sharp & direct. i felt pressure & bloated. i reached out to mel (thanks girl for being awake at 2:00am!) we discussed the pain & she mentioned that it could be ectopic. i had recently read women describing their ectopic pregnancies on a facebook group & my pain didn’t match what they described. I eventually was able to fall back asleep & woke up the next morning feeling well enough to go to church.<br />
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no bleeding of cramping the rest of sunday & monday.<br />
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i called multiple OB's & clinics. no one would see me since i wasn't an established patient. it was unbelievably frustrating, to say the least. i <i>knew</i> i was pregnant, <i>knew</i> i wasn't miscarrying, but i also <i>knew</i> that something wasn't right. everyone told me to go to the ER, but i was feeling ok & not up for forking over $150. i even called the nurses line for my OB in Utah & explained my symptoms. she took my information to my doctor & called me back to tell me that he wanted to get me in for hcg blood draws & an ultrasound at the appropriate time. it was then that i had to sheepishly tell her that we had moved, i couldn't get an OB to seem me, but i wanted to get an opinion before going to the ER. i even cried as i told her how much i missed them - i will blame pregnancy hormones.<br />
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at 5:30 am on tuesday morning (May 15th), a loud roar of thunder woke me up. i realized that pain was back. i sat up. went to the bathroom. walked around. the pain stayed. i said a prayer asking for the pain to be strong enough for me to go to the ER if i needed to.<br />
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the pain quickly got stronger. i couldn't sit up. i had to stay standing. my stomach was unbelievably swollen. i got ashton up to give me a blessing. i pumped while i was standing (couldn't leave gus without milk/i didn't want to be leaking at the hospital).<br />
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then, i drove myself to the hospital. big bolts of lightning flew across the sky as a pink sunrise began to appear. it was awe inspiring & my heart was calm.<br />
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i got to the hospital around 6:10. the nurses seemed skeptical when they checked me in.<br />
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"August of 2016. i am still nursing my son."</blockquote>
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the looks i got from that last answer!<br />
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they got me to a room. drew some blood. got a urine sample. i waited. the pain started to fade & i was worried that i had come for no reason. a kind doctor came in & talked with me. he felt my abdomen & the pain on my left side was wince worthy.<br />
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around 7:50, there was an ultrasound. she couldn't see much so she asked me to empty my bladder & did the longest transvaginal ultrasound ever. i could tell that she concentrated on my left side & it wasn't my favorite.<br />
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more waiting & around 8:30, the kind doctor was back. he explained that my hcg levels were at 4000. an embryo can typically be spotted between 1000 & 1200, but nothing was in my uterus, but there was a 5 cm mass just outside of my left ovary. an OB (ironically enough, one that i called just the day before) would come to talk to me about the next step. it was most likely an ectopic pregnancy, but they couldn't say for sure.<br />
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shortly after, the doctor came back & said that the OB was stuck in a surgery, but would like me to go to pre-pop where he would meet me & explain what was happening. all the doctor would tell me was that i would be having a procedure.<br />
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around 8:50 both my ER & pre-op nurses came in & i was not at all ready to go for surgery. they were rushing me for an IV & getting me in a gown. they were also surprised that i was alone & said i should get ashton there ASAP. since ashton wasn't there to take my belongings, security had to be called to hold onto it for me. my angel husband got the kids dressed, ready & to pre-op within half an hour!<br />
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more waiting, but now in pre-op. nurses kept talking about this procedure, but no one could tell me what it was.<br />
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the OB made it in & pulled up pictures of my ultrasound. fallopian tubes are about the width of a pencil & the embryo in my left tube was 7cm. he said it was definitely ectopic & that they would go in laparoscopically via three incisions - one in my belly button & two lower, along my c-section incision. they were hopeful to make two cuts into my tube & pull the embryo out, but if my tube had ruptured, it would also need to be removed.<br />
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ashton & i were told that the surgery would be finished in about 30-45 minutes. shorter if all went well, longer if the tube had ruptured. ashton took the kids to the waiting room.<br />
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minutes later, the OB came back & said, "you're a pretty tough person huh?" i was a little confused & said something along the lines of, "ya, i think so." thinking he was referring to my history with pregnancy loss & how well i was holding it all together. he then told me that i had about 300 cc's of blood in my stomach. my tube had definitely ruptured & would need to be removed. he was shocked that i wasn't in more pain.<br />
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the anesthesiologist came out & within 5 minutes, things were out of focus. i barely remember moving onto the operating table - something about a pink cushion that my bum had to be below?? then i was waking up with this faint memory of pushing nurses off of me & struggling to breathe. apparently, i asked my nurse all the same questions over & over (she was obviously annoyed) & i was insanely thirsty.<br />
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my nurse helped me use the restroom & then i was being wheeled to the car. talking to ashton now - that whole surgery/recovery took about two hours.<br />
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my ectopic experience was not at all like those of the women who have shared on various LDS mom facebook groups that i belong to. many of them described unbearable pain - like throwing up from pain. an ulstrasound tech said that she can tell just by looking at a patient that it's ectopic because they are sickly pale with dark circles around their eyes. i don't think anyone would have been able to look at me & tell that something was wrong.<br />
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it's been just over two month since everything happened & since i wrote most of this post. there is still some of that numb feeling.<br />
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when i went into my follow up appointment, my OB kept saying things like "if you had taken a step too hard, things could have changed drastically in seconds" or "it was a good thing you got to the hospital when you did because you were a time bomb just seconds from going off". i still can't believe that i had gotten to that point. like i said earlier, i just didn't feel like things were that bad.<br />
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life has kept going. it has kept me busy. being down a fallopian tube hasn't changed much, at least not yet. i might say differently when it comes time for us to try getting pregnant. & then again - how much of it will be because i do miscarry often vs. only having one fallopian tube? my OB doesn't think having one tube will make much of a difference. he also told me he has a feeling he will see me again in a few months because of a positive test, so let's hope that comes true!<br />
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one last thing. this will probably be the hardest part about having had an ectopic pregnancy. as soon as i get that positive pregnancy test, i have to come in and begin blood work & early ultrasounds. this is because once you have had an ectopic, you are more likely to have another. well, because of my miscarriages, i have tried to put off having an appointment until 10 weeks. in my experience, when i go in at 8 weeks & we look at the ultrasound, doctors always say something along the lines of "you must not be as far along as you thought because there is no fetus yet, just a sac." but that is what happens with blighted ovums & within a few weeks, i am miscarrying. so...yay for doctors being proactive, but boo for knowing i am going to miscarry around 6 weeks & having to go 4 more weeks anticipating it happening. hopefully, this isn't the case. hopefully, i go in at 6 weeks and hcg tests double as they should & everything goes smoothly. hopefully.<br />
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Tati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-20681320604765700812017-12-21T14:57:00.000-08:002017-12-21T14:57:06.925-08:00life in fort smithfort smith has now been our home for three whole months & it really has started to feel like home.<br />
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life here is slower. traffic is almost non-existent (except for on the one major street we have). there isn't a whole ton to do - no aquarium, zoo, kids museums, etc. we have one target & <i>seven</i> walmarts (this is arkanasas after all). there are quite a few parks & we even have a water park, but none of that is useful for the winter. we have learned to let go of costco and embrace sam's club. we find ways to keep busy - library, play dates, running errands, coming up with activities to do at home...<br />
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we recently got passes to a children's museum about an hour and a half north. we went last week & rooney loved it so much, we had to get one. i imagine we will try to go once or twice a month.<br />
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our ward is full of amazing people who have welcomed us in. a few women do a preschool for an hour once a week & rooney is always talking about her "school". i was called as the relief society compassionate service leader, which has forced me to get out of my little comfort zone & get to know people.<br />
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ashton has settled in with work. he has sundays & mondays off & his hours are a little different day to day. he is really enjoying being in the tower & training. he is doing a great job.<br />
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things are different here & we still have some adjusting to do - i think getting used to not being close to family will take the longest, but we are so happy to be where we are.<br />
<br />Tati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-42855821087073638652017-12-14T11:10:00.000-08:002017-12-14T11:10:03.633-08:00just a stay at home momsince moving, there have been a few instances where people have asked me what i do for a living. i have always replied: "Oh, I am just a stay at home mom."<br />
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<i>just?! JUST?!!!</i><br />
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i can't believe that came out of my mouth. what i really should have done is proudly say, "I am a stay at home mom of two kids & i am amazing"<br />
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i have dreamed of being a mom since i was a child, so why do i suddenly feel like i can put my role down?<br />
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i had worked part time after having rooney & it was hard, but having a break from my kid was actually really nice, even if i was working. at work my schedule was determined by me, i got to talk to adults, & i never had to share my food. now, i am not saying being a working mom is easy, because IT IS NOT.<br />
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but being a stay at home mom is not easy either. & i think people often just assume SAHMs have it simple - play with kids, cook some food, & hang out all day long. hahahahaha that couldn't be further from the truth. i spend all day running around like a chicken with its head cut off. it is not a pretty sight.<br />
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i am almost always bra-less around the house, in sweats & a baggy shirt, hair in a pony, no makeup & that's as glam as i get. that does something to your self-esteem. at least i get a shower in everyday, right?<br />
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my day consists of constant thoughts of what i need to be doing. for example:<br />
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while i am working out, i am thinking about what to make the kids for breakfast. as i am showering, my thoughts go to what is the weather, how do i appropriately dress my kids. then i step out of the shower to ashton who has to run to work and a crying gus. i nurse guster all the while thinking of something fun to do with rooney today when i see a sock on the floor which reminds me that i have laundry in both the washer & dryer. so i fold one load as i try to read rooney a christmas story while gus sleeps. then i am working for my dad so i start that & of course gus wakes up 10 minutes in. he is poopy & they both need a bath, so i take a break to bathe the babies, which is sort of a circus. once they are clean, smell good, & dressed, we head back downstairs. i am holding gus on my lap, reaching out to my computer perched on the couch arm (because little man can literally reach anything & will push off my lap to get to my computer), trying to edit some company names, & asking rooney to hold on because she is obviously ready for lunch, but doesn't know what she wants to eat. she asks me to list off all of her options, but picks ramen, she is always picking ramen these days. i make her some ramen while gus is screaming in his stander. i run between the stove, gus, & my computer - trying to get it all done. i go to get rooney a bowl and realize the dishwasher needs to be unloaded. i put that on my mental "to do" list for later today, get her some ramen as quickly as possible so that i can nurse gus who is so ready for a nap. while i am nursing him, i realize today is the 14th, there is book club tonight & all of the hoops that i want to ship out for christmas need to be in the mail within FIVE days! eventually, gus gets down for nap, rooney shortly follows after frosting a sugar cookie that we made yesterday <a href="https://thefoodcharlatan.com/the-softest-sugar-cookies-of-your-life-recipe/">(<span id="goog_1640751498"></span>legit the best,<span id="goog_1640751499"></span> softest, chewiest cookies & frosting)</a>, & i finally eat lunch - which makes me start thinking about what on earth i am going to make for dinner. it's only 12:30.<br />
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i need to: unload the dishes, fold more laundry, make my bed/tidy up the room, clean the kitchen (still a flour mess from our cookies yesterday - did i mention they are amazing?! & so worth the mess), go to the post office, finish an 8" hoop that will easily require 6 more hours + so many more little nativity ornaments (& really, i would love to turn <a href="https://www.facebook.com/hoops.and.threads/">hoops&threads</a> into something more, but that also requires more time), make dinner (hopefully leftovers are good with everyone because i need easy), maybe go to book club?, keep my kids entertained, happy, & alive for the rest of the day, & address/stamp/send out all our christmas cards.<br />
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sometimes, i get sad thinking about all the things i <i>want</i> to do, but never feel like i will be able to get to because life is so buys right now. & i know, i know, that someday i will miss these days so i really do try to enjoy every single minute of the crazy.<br />
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my brain is in a constant state of chaos. i am <i>always</i> multitasking. & i am pretty much exhausted all the time. when ashton gets home from work, i physically, mentally, & emotionally crash. the poor man.<br />
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so i am no longer "just" a stay at home mom.<br />
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i AM a stay at home mom, i am so blessed to be a SAHM. this has always been my dream!<br />
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Tati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-8150364577445339342017-09-30T20:17:00.000-07:002017-09-30T20:18:48.926-07:00( s p i d e r ) storieswe lived in a basement before arkansas (ps! we're in arkansas!)<br />
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& with basements, you get spiders. even when your landlord (your fabulous in-laws) sprays regularly. i spent the majority of my husband-less summer without any spider sightings. until the last week or so.<br />
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IF YOU DECIDE TO READ ANY OF THESE, stories 1 & 4 are the best.<br />
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<i>story 1:</i><br />
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it was midnight (you find your self staying up way past your 10:00 bedtime, plus it is the only time i got me time) & i was climbing into bed. i always turn my phone flashlight on because no husband + dark is very scary. as i was plugging my phone in, my light scanned over something moving in my room --- a big, scary, spider. i grabbed a sandal to take care of the spider, something i would normally never do, because you know, i normally have ashton.<br />
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the sneaky spider runs to the corner, where my sandal isn't able to reach him, or her? the corner of the sandal knocks the spider a big & CRAZY TINY LITTLE SPIDERS START TO SCATTER. baby spiders?! you've got to be kidding me.<br />
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it was a holiday so i was able to call ashton & not feel too bad about waking him up in the middle of the night. he told me to get the vacuum & we debated about it for awhile because i was worried mama spider & all those babies would disappear. i ran real fast. vacuumed it all up & immediately ran the vacuum outside. all of this while gus slept & stayed asleep.<br />
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no joke. two days later, i go to pile my pillows on the other side of the bed so i can tuck in for bed. & a spider (bigger than mama and babies) is on a pillow! A SPIDER ON MY BED. <b>ON MY BEDDDD!!! </b>what? this isn't allowed. and it's not somewhere i can just smash it. i couldn't wake ashton up this time, so i called sydney, bless her heart. she told me to get a cup and just capture the spider between the cup and pillow and run the cup outside.<br />
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i did it. and thought that i could just tip the spider in the cup & carefully let it out. HA. i tossed the cup and nearly lost the pillow. i threw the cup outside & the pillow on the floor in the kitchen, slammed the door, & ran away. the cup stayed outside for probably a week? i wasn't the one who picked it up either. i think maybe my mom threw it away?<br />
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about a week went by & i went to get gus' tummy time blanket off the top of a packed up box in my bedroom. i tossed it on my bed while i cleared a spot to lay the pillow. as it hits my bed, i see something scurry under my comforter. NO WAY. in my bed again? but this time, actually <i>in </i>my bed? this can't be possible. at this point, ashton was on the road, heading back to us. i called him and just mostly couldn't stop laughing at how ridiculous this was. he called his brother to save me this time. parker confirmed that the spider was huge and successfully got it outside.<br />
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this happened in our new house, here in arkansas. as of last night, we had been here for five full days. as we were getting the kids ready for bed, i commented to ashton how we hadn't seen any spiders yet!<br />
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last night we were dealing with a throwing up rooney (day #2, no fever, tired, but not lethargic) so ashton decided to just sleep in her room with her. well, we had the washing machine going (washing rooney's messy bedding) & that has been thor's new bedroom since we don't really have a space for his kennel. the washing machine is real loud so thor was whining to compete with it. i asked ashton if he had any solutions for what was going on because i was struggling to get gus to sleep. he came down and suggested getting the kennel out. he went to the garage to get it & i heard him say, " oh fetch!" & came back in to tell me that there was a giant spider.<br />
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this time ashton was with me so i broke into laughter (1. because what are the chances?! 2. i wasn't the one who needed to take care of the situation.) & immediately ran into the garage, hoping to get a view & a picture from a safe distance.<br />
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so ashton grabbed our giant jazz cup and a paper plate, hoping to trap this gargantuan spider. i didn't get a picture, because i used my phone flashlight so that ashton could get a good eye on this spider. ps. it was huge. he wasn't lying.<br />
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ashton attempts to cover the spider with the cup, but it runs so ashton just slams the cup on the running spider. of course, it hits it, but not covers it. AND! baby spiders begin to scurry. i can't even believe it & begin laughing as i am safely perched on the bumper of my car. ashton ran inside, <i>not laughing</i>, and grabbed the vacuum. he got all the itsy bitsys' & then went after big mama who had snuck back between boxes. he said he could feel her thump through the vacuum & then spotted her in our vacuum chamber.<br />
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thinking about it still gives me the heebie-jeebies. ew gross.<br />
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& in case you are wondering, rooney hasn't thrown up since 1:00 am this morning, she ate some, drank a little more some, & took two baths today. i think we are finally in the clear! yayyyy.<br />
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<br />Tati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-71354807157975934452017-09-14T22:44:00.001-07:002017-09-14T22:44:13.211-07:00almost.the.endi have been terrible at keeping the blog up to date this summer.<br />
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that also means, a lot has been going on. a lot of late nights with a lot of thoughts & no one to share them with. so, i have a list of post ideas on my phone & maybe, someday, they will be written.</div>
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tonight, i have to get my thoughts out.</div>
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ashton's final (& biggest) evaluation is tomorrow. the evaluation process happens over three days with 4 different evaluations spread between those days. two grounds evals (taxing of the airplanes) & two locals evals (take off & landing). grounds are easier & locals are more intense & therefore worth more points.</div>
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on wednesday, ashton had a grounds eval in the morning with a local in the afternoon. he did awesome & finished the day with the highest score. today, he had a grounds & did well, because he is amazing. others are doing well, too, but lots of people are going home. </div>
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today, while telling me how he did i heard him say, "ya, i did alright, thanks. it was nice knowing you man." & my heart broke. he told me that this particular guy needed to score an 85 of his local to continue. he got an 84 (which is an insanely <i>good</i> score!). one mistake, worth 16 points. i just cannot even imagine. it's like ashton is in this cut throat reality tv show. of the 18 people his class started with, only 9 are left. tomorrow can send a few more home too. i just can't even imagine - coming this far &, just like that, it's over. i know it is hard on ashton too. he is such a kind soul.</div>
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i am just sitting here, knowing that at 6:30 am, my time, he will be going into his final eval. i know it will be hard. & i can only imagine how nervous he must feel. i hate it. i hate not being with him. i want to hug him, to give him a kiss, & wish him good luck in person. </div>
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so here i am, at 11:10 pm, too nervous/anxious to embroider (because my hands are too sweaty to get a good grip on the needle), sleep, watch a show, or listen to a talk. tomorrow morning, our lives change. </div>
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within a week, everything we own will be packed, loaded into a u-haul, & a new adventure begins. so many emotions in that thought too. sadness - - - knowing that we are leaving family for an unknown period of time. excitement - - - a home! my husband back! a new place to learn to love & explore. anxiety - - - finding a place to live in on such short notice. stress - - - because, MOVING!<br />
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<b>but yayyyy ashton is coming home in a few days</b><br />
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my ramblings. thoughts i don't want to forget. </div>
Tati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-60613682660490293222017-07-01T21:35:00.001-07:002017-07-01T21:35:48.512-07:00& jesus listening can hear<div class="tr_bq">
last week in relief society, our lesson was on elder holland's talk <i><a href="https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2017/04/songs-sung-and-unsung?lang=eng">songs sung and unsung</a></i>. while his talk is beautiful (i mean, it is elder holland) & contains quotes like:</div>
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"Believe in yourself, and believe in Him. Don’t demean your worth or denigrate your contribution. Above all, don’t abandon your role in the chorus."</blockquote>
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"'Come as you are,' a loving Father says to each of us, but He adds, 'Don’t plan to stay as you are.' We smile and remember that God is determined to make of us more than we thought we could be."</blockquote>
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but, it reminded me of a devotional we studied in a class while i was a student at byu. it was 9 years ago, but the story has stuck with me. i thought i had already written a post sharing the story, but i couldn't find it. if i have, & you have already read it, i am sorry, but it's good enough to read again.<br />
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it was given on January 7, 1997 by merrill j. bateman, titled <i>a faith that preserves and strengthens.</i> you can read it in its entirety <a href="https://speeches.byu.edu/talks/merrill-j-bateman_faith-preserves-strengthens/">here</a>, but this is the excerpt i want to share:<br />
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In closing, I wish to illustrate with a modern-day story the trust that we may place in the Savior. I know that faith in Christ and obedience to the principles of the restored gospel bring answers to prayers and divine help when the hour is darkest. The story that follows concerns a young girl, the fourth child in a family of six children. Her name is Heather. Three of the children, including Heather, suffer from a rare disease called glutaric acidemia. In each case, the onset of the disease occurred during the first year of life when an enzyme attacked the brain, causing paralysis. The disease results in acid forming in the muscles, similar to that which occurs following a period of intense physical activity. The problem faced by the children is that the acid never leaves and causes great pain. Cindy, the first child with the disease, died just over one year ago at the age of 23. She was one of the oldest living persons known with the disease. At death she weighed about 40 pounds. </blockquote>
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Soon after Heather’s birth, the parents realized that she would be physically handicapped and that her spirit would be housed in a body with great restrictions. As she grew, she was confined to a wheelchair, unable to speak, and could only send messages with her eyes. A direct gaze and a smile meant yes. A blink meant no. Despite the handicaps, one could feel the vibrant spirit inside. </blockquote>
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As Heather progressed, it became obvious to the parents that she was extraordinarily bright. She would play guessing games with the family using her limited means to communicate. When she was old enough, the parents enrolled Heather in a special school to see if she could learn to speak. The teacher was a gifted therapist. One morning as Heather and the teacher visited about the prior weekend, the teacher learned that Heather had attended Primary. The teacher then sang for Heather “When He Comes Again” (Songbook, p. 82). The expression on Heather’s face revealed the delight within her. When the teacher asked Heather if she had a favorite song, the young girl’s wide eyes and engaging smile left little doubt. But what was the song? Through a series of questions, the teacher learned that Heather’s song was one she had heard in Primary. She wasn’t sure which songbook it was in, but it was about Jesus. The teacher sang all the songs she could think of, but to no avail. However, Heather was not about to quit—she wanted to share her favorite song. At the end of the day, the two were still searching. The teacher agreed to bring her Primary songbooks to school the next day. </blockquote>
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On the following morning, Heather and her teacher continued the quest. From the first hymn to the last, the little girl blinked her eyes indicating no. They were still unsuccessful. But Heather was not about to give up. She wanted to share her favorite song. Finally, the teacher told Heather that her mother would have to help her find the song and then they would sing it. The next day Heather arrived with the green Church hymnal tucked in her chair, but there was no marker. So they began with the first hymn. The teacher would sing the first part of each song and Heather would give her answer. After the first 100 hymns, there were 100 no’s. After 200 hymns there had been 200 no’s. Finally, the teacher began to sing “There is sunshine in my soul today . . .” (Hymns, 1985, no. 227). Heather’s body jumped, and a big smile crossed her face. Her eyes gazed directly into the teacher’s, indicating success after three days of searching. Both teacher and student rejoiced. </blockquote>
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As the teacher sang the first verse and began the chorus, Heather mustered all her strength and joined in with a few sounds. After finishing the first verse and chorus, the teacher asked if she wanted to hear the rest of the verses, and Heather’s eyes opened wide with a firm yes. The teacher began to sing: </blockquote>
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<i>There is music in my soul today,<br />A carol to my King,<br />And Jesus listening can hear<br />The songs I cannot sing. </i></blockquote>
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Heather’s reaction to these lines was so strong that the teacher stopped. As the reality and significance of the words pressed on the teacher’s mind, she wondered if those lines were the reason Heather liked the song? The teacher asked: “Heather, is that what you like about the song? Is that what you want me to know? Does Jesus listen? Does he hear the songs you cannot sing?” </blockquote>
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The direct, penetrating gaze was a clear answer. </blockquote>
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Feeling guided by the Spirit, the teacher asked, “Heather, does Jesus talk to you in your mind and in your heart? </blockquote>
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The teacher then asked, “Heather, what does he say?” </blockquote>
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The teacher’s heart pounded as she saw the clear look in Heather’s eyes as the little girl awaited the questions that would allow her to share her insights. </blockquote>
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“Does Jesus say, ‘Heather, I love you’?” </blockquote>
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Heather’s radiant eyes widened and she smiled. </blockquote>
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After a pause, the teacher asked next, “Does he say, ‘Heather, you’re special’?” </blockquote>
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Finally, the teacher asked, “Does he say, ‘Heather, be patient; I have great things in store for you’?” </blockquote>
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With all her strength, Heather’s head became erect and her eyes penetrated the teacher’s soul. She knew she was loved, she was special, and she only needed to be patient. (Story adapted from Jean Ernstrom, “Jesus, Listening, Can Hear,” Ensign, June 1988, pp. 46–47.) </blockquote>
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Two years later, Heather died because of the ravages of the disease. Her younger brother, Mark, also suffers from the disease but not to the extent of his older sisters. He can talk, although it is not easy. As the parents discussed Heather’s passing and the funeral that would take place, Mark exclaimed, “No go Heather’s funeral!” Heather was his best friend. As the parents tried to explain death to him, he would not be consoled. He was crushed and did not want to attend the service. For two days he could not be persuaded. </blockquote>
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On the morning of the funeral, the father went to Mark’s room to get him up. As he entered the room, Mark was sitting up in bed with a big smile on his face. His first words were: “Dad, go Heather’s funeral!” </blockquote>
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The father responded: “Mark, what has changed your mind?” </blockquote>
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“Dad, had dream.” </blockquote>
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“What did you dream about, Mark?” </blockquote>
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“Dad, dreamed about Heather.” </blockquote>
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“Oh, Dad, Heather running and jumping and singing ‘There is sunshine in my soul today.’ Dad, go Heather’s funeral.” (Mark’s part of the story was obtained through conversations with the parents and also from the book written by the family: Bruce and Joyce Erickson, When Life Doesn’t Seem Fair [Salt Lake City: Bookcraft, 1995]; see pp. 65–66.)</blockquote>
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a few months back, mark came with his mother for a relief society lesson. now, it wasn't until sunday that i connected the dots, that mark's sister was the one whose story has stood out in my life for all this time. when he was talking to the women of our ward, he shared a song that he wrote. there are no words to adequately share the spirit that was felt as he sang his song of hope & faith. he gave each of us a copy of the lyrics & i cherish his words.<br />
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listening to him & reading over his song regularly, reminded me that we shouldn't be afraid to ask heavenly father those hard questions & that even if it is years before we get the answer, we must keep holding on to our faith.Tati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-72123501458862717112017-06-27T07:55:00.003-07:002017-06-27T07:55:59.967-07:00one week downmonday marked a week since ashton left for the air traffic control academy in oklahoma.<br />
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i have learned a lot in that week:<br />
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- i don't like being in bed alone<br />
- my kids are the most important. not the cleaning.<br />
- it is ok to ask/accept help<br />
- our families are amazing, which i already knew, but their support & willingness to help has been such a blessing<br />
- friends who check up on us are the best kind of friends<br />
- take advantage of any naptimes. clean if i can, nap if i am tired, or take some time to myself - they're all ok options!<br />
- stop stressing about things i cannot control<br />
- be flexible! when i was teaching, it was easy for me to be flexible in my classroom. at home, i like to set expectations & meet them. that's alright when it was just me, but impossible to do with kids and without ashton's help<br />
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there are also some perks (this is me trying to look on the bright side. i would easily give these up to have ashton back)<br />
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- i can turn my lamp on at night when feeding Gus<br />
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- no one is here to bring me ice cream/oreos/treats (only a perk since i am trying to get rid of that baby weight. but, if i am being honest, i am really missing those treats)<br />
- less laundry/dishes/cooking.<br />
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we sure miss our dada, but when these three months are over we are going to be the happiest little family!Tati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-43758022809586019792017-05-22T09:20:00.002-07:002020-06-17T10:44:44.083-07:00he is hereon the morning of wednesday, may 17th, at precisely 8:00 am, guster james joined our family. he weighed in at 6 pounds 15 ounces & 19 inches long. apparently, my babies don't get very big, & that is ok by me. he came out kicking & screaming - dr. larsen joked that gus had a baritone cry & i would have to agree. this boy has a nice deep cry. it's adorable. everything about him is perfect. we are definitely in love.<br />
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so here is the story of gus' delivery.<br />
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my doctor gave me the ok to do a vbac & i spent most of my pregnancy trying to decide if i would rather a vbac or go with another c-section. see, the nice thing about <a href="http://kukiluki.blogspot.com/2015/03/she-is-here.html?zx=5acab3b87934cca1">roo's delivery</a> is that i didn't have a choice. she wouldn't be here if it weren't for my mama gut telling me something was off & an emergency c-section. with gus, i had a full nine months to go over all the pros & cons, to let it stew around in my brain for hours each day. i reached out to many women that i knew had had multiple c-sections to get their perspective on things. honestly, i wanted to experience the "whole thing" - the contractions, pushing, watching my baby come into the world, BUT i was afraid. i cannot handle the thought of pain, though i like to think i am typically ok when it comes to actually feeling the pain.<br />
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i went into this pregnancy assuming i would attempt a vbac. then things happened - i began to doubt my body, specifically my scar that didn't heal correctly the first time. i saw a sister give birth, & while everything turned out 100% perfect, i drove home an emotional wreck. suddenly the idea of a vbac made me very anxious. & of course, the opinions of other women got to me too - some negative, some positive, but most were negative towards multiple c-sections. i felt fear behind the idea of both, but ashamed to choose to have another c-section. it's hard to explain, but it was almost like i was being selfish for choosing a c-section. i would never think less of another woman for choosing a c-section, yet, somehow i still felt like i was being judged? it's a feeling i didn't have with rooney.<br />
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ps. just so you know, <a href="https://www.thebump.com/a/c-section-guilt">c-section guilt</a> is a real & common thing. check out number 5 in the article i linked. ding ding ding. that was me.<br />
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so after my appointment last thursday (5/11), ashton & i had a lot to talk about. we asked dr. larsen about risks. we discussed how many kids are possible via c-sections. he told us that after two c-sections, i would most likely need to deliver all the rest of my babies the same way. we considered how ashton is leaving for the academy in a month & he wanted as much time as possible with baby gus. we also considered the fact that i wasn't dilating or showing any signs of progress. yes, i know i still had a week of pregnancy left. i told ashton that i wanted someone else to make the decision for me. he didn't hesitate to tell me he thought a c-section would be the better way to go for us.<br />
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so, after a blessing (which <i>did not</i> tell me which to choose, like i was selfishly hoping it would) & lots of talk, we decided to go with another c-section. i emailed dr. larsen that saturday morning & monday morning one of the nurses called me to say it was scheduled for wednesday, may 17th at 7:30. monday & tuesday were two VERY long days - two days where i continued to go up & down & all around in my emotions.<br />
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wednesday finally came. we had to be to the hospital at 5:30 am that morning. so early. but great too, because i didn't sleep much that night anyway. we open the front door to walk to the car & it is S N O W I N G. you guys. mid may & there was <b>snow</b>. snow is not my favorite, but, it did make for an extra memorable day.<br />
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we got to the hospital right on time & they set me up, gave me an iv, & monitored the little man for a few hours. as 7:30 drew closer, my nerves began going crazy. i was on the verge of tears & shaking - must have been the adrenaline & i think my second bag of fluids was cold. the anesthesiologist came in to prep me & just after 7:30, ashton & i followed him into the OR.<br />
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once in the OR, the dam broke all my emotions poured out in the form of tears. hormones, anticipation, excitement, fear - it had built up & everything was about to change. the anesthesiologist kindly told me this was normal & then began to insert the spinal block. not my favorite part. definitely some pain & some bizarre-ness (the best word i could think of to describe it) as i could feel the center of my spine. gives me the chills thinking about it. immediately my body started tingling & my legs were getting heavy. they laid me down & then i could feel (but not feel at the same time) them moving my legs around, positioning my body on pillows, placing my catheter. i started feeling sort of panic attack-ish & dr. quiel hooked me up with some oxygen - which helped calm me down. at the beginning i said something about still being able to feel my toes & dr. larsen said, "well, it's a good thing i am not doing surgery on your toes." ashton & i couldn't stop laughing, it was fun to be able to interact with the doctors since it wasn't a stressful situation like it was with roo. it was nice to calmly go into this c-section, rather than rushing because my baby's life was at risk. it was beautiful to see gus as soon as he was pulled from my body. & then to hold him nearly immediately & keep him with me the entire time i was in recovery was everything that i missed with rooney.<br />
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gus immediately began searching for food. we spent the majority of our time in recovery nursing, which is wonderful, but i couldn't really just stare at his face. i wanted to soak in every little bit of his newborn face. from his droopy bottom lip, furrowed brow, & adorable (but masculine) nose. ashton brought rooney in to see her baby brother during recovery - a treat for me! i didn't expect to be able to see her that quickly, but i am so glad i was able to. she was the one person i wanted to see before surgery, but thanks to the snow, that wasn't possible. i think it's safe to say that she is in love with her baby brother.<br />
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the rest of our hospital stay was fairly boring - which is perfectly great! gus eats like a champ, except for when it come to my left breast. just like rooney, he prefers the right side. he sleeps deeply - so much so that sometimes it makes feeding <i>really</i> difficult. we had some great visits with family & friends. we were so well taken care of by the sweet nurses & everyone thinks our little mister guster is the absolute cutest. we couldn't agree more.<br />
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Tati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-38712065221712063052017-05-03T15:26:00.001-07:002017-05-03T15:26:23.159-07:00the adventure continueswe have been waiting & waiting for ashton to get his firm offer letter (FOL) for air traffic control. this whole process has been nuts. all i can say is that it is a good thing ashton is more patient than i am (hopefully it rubs off on me eventually).<br />
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on april 11th, that day finally came! he got a phone call asking him to accept a position & start at the academy in oklahoma city on may 9th. ahhhh! he mentioned baby boy coming at the end of may so she tentatively told him to plan for june 21st while she gets it approved. ON HIS BIRTHDAY (april 13th), it became officially official!!!<br />
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i am so proud of ashton. he never gave up, even when there were so many reasons to justify quitting. he has found other ways to provide for us as he has waited for this dream. he continued to have faith & relied on experiences we have had throughout this journey.<br />
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so our adventure begins! ashton will leave a few days before the academy starts while rooney, baby boy, thor, & i stay home, pack, & miss him dearly. then he finishes september 15th, drives home to us (& hopefully a u-haul completely packed), because we will head to our new (currently unknown) home almost immediately. it is going to be a whirlwind, not easy, but totally worth it type of adventure. & luckily we are surrounded by family to help us along the way.Tati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-20519966023273513492017-03-20T20:01:00.002-07:002020-06-17T10:44:12.339-07:00rooney's second birthdaymy baby turned two on saturday.<br />
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i can't believe it's been two years! some days it seems like she has been with us for forever & other days, i seem to blink & she is all grown up.<br />
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last week, ashton took some pictures of her & they turned out adorable - of course!<br />
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on friday night, we decided to do a birthday dinner at chili's. they brought ice cream out to rooney, who then gave me the goofiest, happiest grins i have ever seen -- which provided for lots of laughs for me & ashton.<br />
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then on saturday we had family over for a doc mcstuffins party. rooney was very specific about what she wanted from her party this year & i felt the pressure! luckily, the minute her cousins showed up & the cake was brought out, she was too busy to care about anything else. it was the perfect day to have a bbq (minus the wind) & spend most of her party outside. She loved her party - talked about it every second the week leading up to it & has asked to open presents everyday since. she also told me she wanted strawberry cake for lunch.<br />
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<br />Tati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-27829221800797232162017-03-19T19:10:00.001-07:002017-03-19T19:10:13.370-07:00san antoniomy cousins grew up in san antonio - because it wasn't ever close to anywhere we lived, we didn't get to see them much growing up & have never visited them in texas.<br />
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this weekend, that finally changed!<br />
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kaitlyn & john got engaged a year ago & asked rooney & millie to be their flower girls.<br />
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mom, kelsey, & i flew out with the girls late thursday (2/23) night & then came home on an <i>early </i>flight on monday morning (2/27).<br />
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[[ you guys, rooney has hit a ridiculously hard stage & i have hit full on pregnancy hormones (yay, 3rd trimester) - we make a mess together. i don't know what it is. but i did realize during our <b>last</b> day that she had some teeth making their way through & buying some ibuprofen definitely helped. ps. what almost two year old is <i>still </i>teething!? there were many moments throughout our trip, i thought i just wanted to go home because rooney. ]]<br />
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anyway, back to our trip.<br />
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friday was a beautiful day, but we had some crazy happenings. we started with manicures for the mamas & the flower girls. rooney made it through one hand & then freaked out & messed it all up. not a huge success. & on par for the turd she's been.<br />
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then mom thought it would be fun to take us by her old house. i was excited to see some of san antonio, especially the area mom had called home for a year & a half. we got to her high school & the rental car started beeping, then all the engine lights began to flash. after the exhausting nail trip we had just had, i couldn't help but laugh. we pulled into a parking lot just as the car died - we didn't even make it all the way into the spot, but we were out of harms way. it happened to be a bakery parking lot - so the girls got lucky with cinnamon rolls & cupcakes. we spent about an hour there, poor grandma dealing with the rental company, eventually getting my cousin, evy, to come pick us up while she hung around for the tow truck.<br />
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friday night was the rehearsal dinner in kaitlyn & john's backyard. talk about beautiful! it was the perfect evening, surrounded by family, & filling our bellies with delicious food.<br />
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saturday evening was the wedding. kaitlyn made the most stunning bride. everything about the ceremony & the reception was beautiful & so very classy. rooney made it about a quarter of the way down the aisle before running back to me - not so bad for her first try at flower girl. whenever she started to cry, the ring bearer (also two years old), cornelius, would bring her his fire truck toy. it was the sweetest thing. he was an answer to prayers. we still didn't last through the entire reception, but it was a day i will always remember.<br />
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i am so sad that i didn't get any pictures with kaitlyn or john on their big day (or at all during the entire trip). they are wonderful people & i am glad we were able to be a part of their big, perfect, beautiful day.<br />
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sunday was another simple day. lots of napping, time with evy & her family, a visit to H-E-B, & then dinner with kaitlyn, john, & family. can you believe the newlyweds invited us over to their house the day after their wedding?! they're crazy & i love them for it.<br />
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Monday morning, we got up ridiculously early & headed for the airport. i even bought moana & kid headphones to keep rooney quiet for the flight. it went well. UNTIL the last 5 minutes, we were landing, when suddenly we flew straight up & had to loop around, adding more than half an hour to our landing. then, because of snow (did i mention how lovely the texas weather was!), we were on the runway for too long. & of course, roo needed to go to the bathroom. i am sure everyone around us loved me grabbing a diaper from kelsey & holding it to rooney's bottom & then us running off the plane & straight for a bathroom. rooney couldn't stop saying, "it's snowing today!" & was so excited for dad to get home to play in the snow with her.<br />
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<br />Tati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-48540946965544396782017-02-18T20:32:00.001-08:002017-02-18T20:32:58.840-08:00rotten eggsstruggling to stay pregnant has opened up doors for me, forever connected me to people who were just acquaintances, & strengthened my relationships with already forever friends. it hasn't been my favorite journey, but if it allows me to feel & show empathy towards others or even help someone along their journey, it helps me through my grieving process. it is my silver lining through this trial.<br />
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i was chatting with a friend who has been trying to get pregnant for a long time. she is one of my sister's best childhood friends & so she has always seemed like a little sister to me. it breaks my heart that she is going through this. infertility is an ugly, unfair thing.<br />
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anyway, she recently saw a specialist & is getting ready to do the tests that i had done this summer. we were discussing them & praying that they give her answers. i told her that none of my tests revealed anything, but it is probably because i just have rotten eggs.<br />
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so, ever since then, my rotten eggs have been on my mind. & it caused me to think back on an episode of new girl from season 2. in it, jess & cece visit their friend who also is an obgyn. she tells them something along the lines of everyone's quality of eggs is different. jess & cece get the blood test to find out how their eggs are.<br />
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as i watched this episode back in 2012, i had no reason to think the quality of my eggs would be anything less than perfect. in fact, when cece found out her eggs weren't so great & her years of fertility were limited, i didn't feel much because it was just a tv show. of course, now, that episode pulls at my heart.<br />
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i know that both rooney & baby brother are miracles, my sweet rainbow babies. i am 2 for 5 so far & i know i am no doctor, but 60% of my eggs seem to be not so quality. there isn't much doctors can do to help with it - no hormones to give me that will magically make them better. it breaks my heart, knowing that i will probably struggle with miscarriages the entire time we try to have children.<br />
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so, while i may be pregnant right now, my heart is never far from those who struggle. i think of & pray for these women often. i know i will be there again in years to come. i find strength in the mamas i have talked to who have had multiple losses between children - yet have still created good sized, strong, beautiful families.<br />
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& that is my little rant on my lame eggs (which, obviously, make my sticky, quality ones so absolutely amazing) & the struggles of family making.Tati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-69095596293908176742017-02-18T19:20:00.000-08:002017-02-19T08:01:43.557-08:00tentative offer letterthis february 14th was easily the greatest valentine's day we've ever had.<br />
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i woke up feeling blessed & grateful for all the love in my life. we are working really hard to save money, so we decided that we would keep valentines day simple - like family date night to chick-fil-a simple. which was just fine by me!<br />
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for those who don't know, ashton & i got engaged while eating chick-fil-a. we went to chick-fil-a immediately after our wedding reception. when we moved to minnesota, we were heartbroken because they didn't have a chick-fil-a. well, guess what opened up next to our target four months after we moved? chick-fil-a of course! it's been a big part of our relationship & i am super ok with that.<br />
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anyway, rooney and i were home after work, waiting for dad to come home. when he got home, i proceeded to take a nap because you know, 26 weeks pregnant means tired <i>all the time</i>. i was asleep for maybe 40 minutes when ashton jumps onto the bed - obviously excited about something.<br />
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he got his <b>tentative offer letter</b> for a position with air traffic control! there are three different positions they offer - en route, terminal, and tower. ashton has been assigned to terminal. this means he had to accept the tentative employment offer & send in some more paperwork. in the next week or so, they will send another letter with additional pre-employment clearance requirements. i don't know for sure, but i am assuming that would be a psych & medical evaluation? after that, he will receive the firm offer letter, making him an official employee!<br />
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of course, there are still unknowns. we do know he will eventually be leaving for the academy for three months, but we don't know when that will be. potentially anytime in the next 6 to 18 months. we might not find out when he goes to the academy until <i>two weeks </i>before they expect him to be there. then, once he is finished with the academy we will have <i>eight days</i> to pack up and arrive to whichever tower he is assigned to (which will not be salt lake since it is a level 10 and new air traffic controls can only work lower levels during training). so, basically, the faa likes to leave us hanging a bit - which will make for a wild ride over the next little bit.<br />
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so our love day celebration turned into so much more! it was a huge day for us. but, sweet rooney, brought us back to earth with a stinky accident while at chick-fil-a. <i>a day we will never forget.</i>Tati Smithhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02559167973347570304noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4049446494851747517.post-58545169419885260302017-02-13T11:01:00.000-08:002017-02-13T11:01:57.626-08:00finau ( finn ) stanleylate on february 8th, sydney had finn! he is absolutely perfect. she was an absolute rockstar - laboring for over 36 hours to bring the little man here. he is absolutely the sweetest & i can't wait for our little man to get here so him & finn can be best friend.<br />
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